"It's time for an adventure."

those were the most beautiful words I had ever heard. This year is the year for an adventure. I even applied for a trip to china. Talk about stepping out of my comfort zone. That is a basic first step for me in adventures. Although this next week we are going to nebraska, adventures for me are ones I would rather take by myself, cause it's been fifteen years and I still haven't figured out who I am and who I wanna be yet. Lately, I have been thinking about people like Mary Poppins, Babar the elephant, and the Webers. Mary and Babar are fictional, but the Webers are not. They are going to argentina for a year or two to figure things out for themselves. My sister Kristin is on an adventure herself. Right now she's in Taos New Mexico and then she's going to be at home for a spell, and then she's college-bound to learn midwifery in Iowa. I know, she's taking some pretty big steps, but I think it's time for me to start making steps as well. Being me, they aren't going to just be "big steps", in my own phrasing, I am going to call it "puddle splashing". I basically have my toes on the edge of one, applying to go to china and all. And one of these days I am going to have to get to durango somehow. And I just recently started going to a girl's bible study and they are talking about going on a trip sometime, which I am all for. And I have even been trying to apply for a job in town, so that is a tiny splash that I am gettting ready to make. If I would give myself a pep talk, it would be these four words: Get out there and do it!!!!!

"All that you know is about to change." That statement is very true; recently we found out that a very good friend of ours passed away, and then another recently suffered the loss of his dad. God is gathering to himself the eldest of our families. It might be hard, I know, but you have to know that the reason why is because he is bringing them home, and he is telling every one of them "Well done, good and faithful servant." My great grandma, Leona Knickerbocker, went home to be with the lord last year. We still miss her a whole lot, but I know that to be with God is alot better than what's going to go down in our nation of America. Be strong and courageous in the Lord!!!!

May

 Some people say that they are pro-choice. Some people say that they are for gay marriage. Enter my life today: I have friends who are for gay marriage, and it's hard to give an opinion, cause they don't want one. To them, their beliefs are law. That's the world today, and christianity is failing today, the very image of an ant being squished by a giant shoe. It's a kind of picture of us (believers) against society, who little by little is promoting the idea of homosexuality. One example is the song "Call Me Maybe". In the music video, a cute brunette is trying to get an extremely cute guy's attention by singing to him, laying all over a car that she attempts to wash in order to get his attention, and he finally ends up writing his phone number on a piece of scrap paper, and then hands it to....... the girl's band guitarist. And the catch: The recievee is a guy, too. It's gone so far to where society has a built-in air bag: The youth. They've gone so far to where the youth are celebrating "diversity": the idea where everybody is different, and we should help them embrace them. It's gone to the point where rainbows have been used to promote the idea, which means that although there are many different colors, it helps to make a beautiful masterpiece. but believe or not, folks, this is the worm in the middle of a perfect apple, which is beginning to eat it's way through, bit by bit. We should celebrate diversity, because originally the idea is the difference of the skin tone and opinion. But that is just me.

april

things that have rocked my world:

1. the boston bombing

2. Jubilee's tumor

3. living on a farm

there are tons of others, but i am getting ahead of myself. I always am. there are times that i need to hand all my stuff to God, even though I don't want to. but there are things that we can't change, especially with what happened yesterday in boston. our prayers (i and my family's) go out to them. tell me something about your life!!!