One year ago today, I lost a very good friend. Her name was jubilee grace weber, and she totally changed my life. I didn't know her for a long time, but she made an impact on me, my family, and the whole town. She was a beautiful light while she was here, laughing, talking, and making a difference in my life as a person. Today is the one year mark of her passing. My world fell apart when I heard she had passed. I knew she was in a better place, but I asked myself, why her??? And why did she die so young when she had so much to look forward to: first day of school, her ups and downs, the good days and the bad, and watching her grow up. I was pretty mad at God for a time. Cause I mean, everyone was asking, why her, why did she have to die when she was just four??? That's way too young an age for anyone to die. But I just have to tell myself, it was for a reason. You will see her again soon, you just have to wait have hope and believe that you'll see her again, and she won't be sick. The hardest parts are the memories. I can remember what we did with her, like read her books and hold her, but I remember during that time, that I was stubborn in thinking that she wasn't going to die, she'll get better. But her parents knew that the tumor was inoperable, and there was nothing they could do. But I kept telling myself, she'll get better just when things start to get worse. And she was such a trooper through it all. As Zach Sobiech put it, she was a kid who really didn't lose. She has won, because Jesus had the ultimate victory, and he still does.
There are times when I wake up, and I think, Jubilee's gone. The months after she died is when it hit me the hardest. But I cannot express the pain that I know is a whole lot deeper for her parents. Another way to help me cope is that I've been listening to a song called "Clouds." it was written by a kid named Zach Sobiech, a kid who had a bone cancer that gave him only a few months to live. His story is incredible, and has made me really think about how I need to appreciate my life, since we all one go at it, so to speak. But he made the most of it. He wrote songs that said goodbye. My favorite verse of his song Clouds is "...and maybe someday/I'll see you again/we'll float up in the clouds and we'll never see the end." When I listen to that line, it's not Zach singing anymore, it's Jubilee that's speaking through the lyrics. And that gives me hope. I do miss her a lot, but I know she isn't sick there and she won't be ever again. Before I end this post, I wanted to show you the song clouds. And I hope it will touch your life, like it has touched mine.
Here is the link: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=sDC97j6lfyc
